Weekly thought & writing update.
So, I feel like I’m hitting my head against a brick wall! Its fun. Writing. It’s a fun life.
Essentially, I came to the end of draft 3 of Elondria. Note that this is not the same as finishing draft three of Elondria. I came to the end of the story, and realised that I’ve dropped several subplots, and that the ending is rubbish.
Which leads me to adding in scenes to pick up the subplots, and restructuring the last act. Which I’m a bit down about. I felt really frustrated with myself last night. I want this process to be so much further on than it is I’m ready for the next step, but my book’s not. Which is, as I said, frustrating (and that’s putting it politely). I’ve got a long way to go before I’m a published author (of a novel), before I have the dream that I want so much it hurts.
All I can do is keep putting one foot in front of the other right?
Aside from snow, and ice, and the annoyance of weather-related disruptions, my mind has actually been occupied a lot this week by my writing. And the differences between traditional publishing and self-publishing.
I have a self-published book. A collection of flash and microfiction. I am proud of this collection, and glad I published it. If I could self-publish a novel, I would. But here’s the thing – it’s an expensive game, and I don’t have the money to pay for a professional editor, which I am aware my book will sorely need, and a cover designer on top of that. I don’t have thousands of pounds to spend on, well, anything.
Which leads me to traditional publishing, to getting an agent, and eventually a publisher, complete with an editor paid by the publisher. This option does mean lack of control over certain elements of the book, but on the positive side – it also means that the risk is being taken by the publisher, and you have their influence behind you.
Neither option is perfect, and even if I had the money to go indie, I think I would want to do both. I can’t let go of the childhood dream of being traditionally published.
I just wish there was more acknowledgement in the self-publishing world that not everyone has the financial means to professionally publish their own book. Please remember, when you’re talking about it, listening to talk about it, that those who can are privileged. They are lucky to have the means to make the choice.
I am grateful for everything that I have because I know there are many who have less. Remember always that you are lucky, and don’t assume as a default that everyone has what you have.
A little bit of gratitude, and understanding, goes a long way.