Weekly thought & writing update.
I have an obsessive personality. If there are rules, I force myself to work within them. I feel the need to be “perfect,” and to make what I create “perfect.” And these are the reasons I’m letting go of story structure for now. My stories flow best when I’m not thinking about how many words should be in each act and worrying about whether a certain event “qualifies” as a “pinch point” or “plot point.” I write my two best stories straight out of my head, I pantsed them, and I loved doing it. Words without bounds.
So, this week I have thrown the “rules” out of the window. I’m planning draft two of Rabbit, and I’m going to trust that I know enough about story, that I can write it without needing to “perfectly” fit the guidelines, that, as writer’s, it feels like we’re always being told to follow.
I’m glad I’ve spent time studying story structure, but I think now’s a good time to put it aside, and just let the story be what it is. To have faith that I can do it my way.
Which kind of leads me into my thought: just letting things be.
I’m not very good at this, but I’m trying to be better. (Like when I get the hiccups and get angry because I hate hiccuping.)
Not everything will fit into a defined box, neither will everyone. There will always be a shape that isn’t even named yet. And there’s nothing wrong with that. There’s nothing wrong with being the odd one out, of thinking differently to everyone else around you.